The Creation of Narcissa Tarver

Natchez Cemetery

Narcissa June Tarver is a figment of my imagination, conjured as the vehicle for a story I needed to tell about some of my ancestors and collateral relatives who lived in southern Mississippi in the years after the Civil War. I crafted her carefully. I made her by far the youngest in her family in order to make her an uneasy bridge between generations. I gave her a minor disability in order to make her of questionable marriageability. But even as she performed her assigned function, she began to take over, to assert herself as someone who had her own story to tell. 

At this point, I was still calling her “Lucy,” but that increasingly didn’t seem to fit. Besides, there were too many other characters in Southern fiction called Lucy. One evening on my second trip to Natchez, as I was perusing names in my family trees and census records, I paused over the name “Narcissus,” which had been the middle name of one of my great-grandmothers. I liked it, but I wasn’t sure. The next morning, before leaving Natchez for Jackson, I looked through a book in my AirB&B about the Natchez cemetery. I noticed an odd looking grave of a fellow named Rufus Case (possibly a relation) who had reputedly been buried in his rocking chair. I resolved to search out the grave before leaving town. I found it. And on another side of the weirdly cubic marker was the name of another person buried there: Laura Narcissa Case. That clinched it. I couldn’t help but wonder if my main character hadn’t just told me who she wanted to be. 

And so the story of The Disenchantment of Narcissa Tarver evolved—as works of fiction often do—as a collaboration between author and characters. Narcissa refused to be submerged in the tumult of her brother’s political career, consistently finding ways to play her own role in his very real world. I had to let her have her way. And now that her story is written and soon to be published, I think she may want more. A sequel? A story about the rest of Narcissa Tarver’s life after her “disenchantment”? That could happen. 

Where??

A question people often ask about a book is “where does the story take place?” In the case of the two novels in The Resistance, the answer is about as complicated as you might expect from an author who is also an anthropologist. 

Both stories start off in Dallas, Texas, and they keep coming back there, too. 

Jenda Swain’s story in Way of the Serpent takes her to San Miguel de Allende, Mexico; Buenos Aires, Argentina; and somewhere in Costa Rica. There are also trips to Houston and San Antonio a remote village in New Mexico. 

Malia Poole’s story in Shadow of the Hare spends a lot of time in Philadelphia, Pennsylvania, and Marfa, Texas, but she also travels to Lagos, Nigeria, and Jaipur in India’s Rajasthan. 

If you’re yearning to “get away” without getting on an airplane or on the Interstate, why not read a book that takes you there while you sit in your favorite chair sipping your favorite beverage? 

Writer Journey Ahead!

My last real “writer journey” was in March of 2016, when I traveled through New Mexico, Arizona, and west Texas collecting interviews and images and impressions for FLIGHT OF THE OWL, book 3 of my Recall Chronicles series. I took a wonderful journey to Ubud, Bali, in June 2019 as I prepared to release my one stand-alone contemporary fiction book—NOT KNOWING. A draft of the first book of my EarthCycles series (SONG OF ALL SONGS) was already in the hands of beta readers at that time, so my trip to Bali was not about researching or writing anything in particular, but rather about settling into a better understanding of who I am as a writer. 

Writing got placed on the back burner at the beginning of 2020 as I temporarily took on a more active role as caregiver for my young granddaughter. 

And then COVID happened. I found that I had lots of time for writing and kept moving ahead slowly despite the daily distractions of politics and pandemic. In the last three years I’ve published three more books: SONG OF ALL SONGS in 2020, BOOK OF ALL TIME in 2021, and BEYOND THE ENDLESS this year. 

Now I’m returning to the Recall Chronicles to write a book four: FINAL RECALL. This story begins exactly where book three—FLIGHT OF THE OWL—left off, with Dextra and Jonathan and Gavin on a plane departing Costa Rica. But whereas Jonathan was the main character in FLIGHT, Gavin is the main character in this one. Major reorientation! They land in Santa Fe, New Mexico. So that’s where I’m going this week. And from there I will trace out the journey Gavin subsequently takes, going south from Santa Fe toward White Sands and then east into Texas. I can’t wait to take my imagination out on the open road!

Nostalgia

I’ve reached that moment of awkward disequilibrium that often occurs in my travels when it’s almost time to return home. It’s an ambiguous sort of nostalgia, where missing home is offset by awareness of how much I’m going to miss the place where I am now when I’m not here anymore.

I love Bali. I love the weather and the landscape and daily life in the banjar of Kutuh Kaja. I love the deep cultural persistence, the aliveness of ancient temples that are replenished daily with artfully composed fresh offerings. I love the strong sense of place among people for whom kaja (toward Mt. Agung) and kelod (away from Mt. Agung) are as important as east/west or north/south. I love that Mt. Agung is an active volcano. I love the artistry, the taksu, that has not (yet) been obliterated by the influx of treasure-seeking tourists. I love the dignified bearing and “bright faces,” the ready laughter, of young and old alike.

I’ll miss you, Bali.

But I also miss my family. I’ll get to see my daughter and son-in-law for a couple of days on my way home. I miss them a lot. I’ll soon get to hug my precious grandchildren again – I’ve missed them and their parents (my son and daughter-in-law). I’ll soon retrieve my little bird from her “summer camp”; I’ve missed her, too. I’ve missed my familiar spaces and places and habits.

They say, “Wherever you go, there you are!” But it’s also true that wherever you go, you’re not in any of those other places you hold in your heart. Nostalgia can happen anywhere once you’ve fallen in love with more than one place.

Maybe I’ll just go with Ram Dass: “Be. Here. Now.”